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I sit here and sometimes I wonder if I'm doing it right. I feel so full when my grand children are around. I am having some depression issues. I look into my grandchildren's eyes and it's all but forgotten. Preston is so adorable! I saw his newborn pictures today! OMG!!! He's so precious. I can't get over it. Then I see the picture with my son and I almost cried! I can tell that my son is going to be an awesome father. He already shows just how much he loves Preston.

Then I look at Ava, she looks just like her daddy. She has the most beautiful smile and personality that I've ever seen! She hates to go to bed. I don't know one child that doesn't though.

I haven't seen Alyssa but twice, yet I love her! She's so beautiful! I see her mom and grandfather in her whole personality. I am really worried about our next grandson on the way. He keeps trying to come early. I know exactly how she feels. I was there what seems like a minute ago, but was almost 18 years ago.

I want the kids to know how much I love them. I want that to be shared as much as possible while I am here. This is but a short amount of time in the grand scheme of time.